Our Story Part 2

I am only sharing my side of the "Our Story"

It will make sense at the end...

I woke up this morning feeling compelled that I needed to tell you my whole story so that you could see the hand of God on our conversation yesterday.This is going to be a long email but I feel it's worth sharing with you.

It’s a crazy God story!

Last week, I was away on business.The goal of the trip was to watch and learn vaginal ultrasound scanning and learn how to read the ultrasound images for a new product I am launching. I lined up this training course about 6 weeks ago and had seven patients volunteer to be my models to get a free exam while I got to learn.

My boss was coming with me on the trip to Tampa. Last minute (12 hours before our flight) his son got sick and he needed to cancel. When I there, I found out at the last minute five of the seven patients canceled.The trainer asked me to step in and be a model in order for the trip to be somewhat worthwhile. Unwillingly, I stepped in and became a model. I would never have volunteered if my boss was there.

In a nutshell, I found out I have five tumors in my uterus. Good news – they are not symptomatic. Bad news – they are not symptomatic. Most look like they are fibroids except for one is the size of a golf ball and looks very abnormal.The tumors would never have been caught during a normal OB visit. There is no reason for me to have ever had a vaginal ultrasound.

I see my OB and then a specialist to determine what kind of tumor the rare one is. I am not worried about the tumors - not at all.Worst case situation, I need a hysterectomy.I was just surprised and sad.Sad because I was told I would most likely never be able to have children.As a result I have been mourning over this loss all week long. Struggling to find the good in it. Struggling because it is a death of a dream for me.

I wasn’t going to tell anyone but I thought you should know the whole story.When you came forward to ask for prayer, this is where I was mentally, emotionally and physically.I am telling you all of this because I want you to know God’s timing and ways are perfect. The minute you spoke the words, “I have had two miscarriages…”I knew in that very moment you were a divine appointment by God and I couldn’t hold back the tears. I couldn’t help but hug you. I was crying because I knew your pain. Although our situations are different, the end result is the same - the loss of a dream.

I want you to also know that I was also crying because God showed up in the midst of it all and was saying to me "See, I use all things for good...” You were a “balm”to my soul in that moment.

Sharing this story does not take away the pain of your loss.I know that…I just wanted you to know God used your vulnerability to reveal himself to me in a mighty way! You were a piece of the puzzle - God's Glory revealed to me in the midst of a huge trial in my life. I know He is and will continue to do the same for you. Allow God to speak into the depth of your soul. Remember, its ok to not be ok. Just don't stay there too long.

May we both have "eyes" to see Him at work. During this holiday season, may we we both focus on the hand of God upon our lives.He is a good God that loves us deeply.

By the way, He lost a child too.

Our Story - City Church (Part 1)

I haven't blogged in a long time but here is what's been going on in my life.

 



I also thought I would share some of the ways He has been speaking to me this year...

While attending a baptizm at church, I heard the Lord speak directly to me about two of the ladies. I was hesitate to share at first but here they are. Below are e-mails I sent to them and their responses back. God is so good! If you are reading this, lean in and respond to God's leading.

First person…

During your baptizm, the Lord gave me an image of an eagle soaring very, very high in the sky. Higher than all the other birds. The wings were spread out and the eagle was souring with the wind behind its wings as it soured higher and higher in the sky. The eagle only looked down in the beginning, the rest of the time the eagle was focused toward heaven.

I believe the Lord wants to take you to new heights in your relationship with Him. He wants you to "sour in the spirit" and go to higher heights with Him than most others around you.

Isaiah 40:31 "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

Psalm 103:5 "Who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s."

Exodus 19:4 "You yourselves have seen what I did to Egypt, and how I carried you on eagles’ wings and brought you to myself."

Her response...

I cannot express to you how grateful I am to have received your email. Thank you so much for reaching out to me.

The past couple of months have been incredibly transformative in my walk with Christ. The Lord has created opportunities for growth in so many areas, and God's presence has been immensely powerful during this time. On the flip side to that, the enemy has really been weighing down on me recently - I believe because he senses God's mightiness in my life now more than ever. It is God who has enabled me to persevere in a relationship with him and it is He who has continued to meet me each and every day. Through every struggle and hardship that I may face in this life, I pray to be that eagle focused solely on heaven and truly soar to the highest heights with God.

Again, thank you so much for sharing with me the image and words that God impressed upon you on Sunday evening. The encouragement you have offered me today is immeasurable.

Second persion...

During your baptism, the Lord gave me a word for you. I believe the Lord wants to give you a "new name"... He didn't give me anything more than "I have a "new name" for her."

I do not know how familiar you are with scripture however over and over again, the Lord would give his people a new name. The Lord would change a person's name to establish a new identity in Christ. The old is gone and the new has become. For example, Abram (high father) became Abraham (Father of a Multitude). Sarai (my princess) became Sarah (Mother of Nations). Simon (God has heard) became Peter (The Rock). Often a new name gave the person a new mission in life. It gave them a divine plan and also assured them that God's plan would be fulfilled in their lives. I don't believe God is asking you to physically change your name but He does want to give you a new identify in Him. I hope that makes sense.

By the way, not everyone received a new name. It was only given to those that had a divine mission. Kind of cool when you think about it. Okay enough from me. I'll let God reveal more to you!

Her response...

Thank you so much for sharing this with me. My roomate mentioned that you had received a word for me, but hearing the whole context from you directly is really helpful. I will definitely be praying on this. Thank you for your obedience in sharing, I am blessed by it.