Our Story Part 2

I am only sharing my side of the "Our Story"

It will make sense at the end...

I woke up this morning feeling compelled that I needed to tell you my whole story so that you could see the hand of God on our conversation yesterday.This is going to be a long email but I feel it's worth sharing with you.

It’s a crazy God story!

Last week, I was away on business.The goal of the trip was to watch and learn vaginal ultrasound scanning and learn how to read the ultrasound images for a new product I am launching. I lined up this training course about 6 weeks ago and had seven patients volunteer to be my models to get a free exam while I got to learn.

My boss was coming with me on the trip to Tampa. Last minute (12 hours before our flight) his son got sick and he needed to cancel. When I there, I found out at the last minute five of the seven patients canceled.The trainer asked me to step in and be a model in order for the trip to be somewhat worthwhile. Unwillingly, I stepped in and became a model. I would never have volunteered if my boss was there.

In a nutshell, I found out I have five tumors in my uterus. Good news – they are not symptomatic. Bad news – they are not symptomatic. Most look like they are fibroids except for one is the size of a golf ball and looks very abnormal.The tumors would never have been caught during a normal OB visit. There is no reason for me to have ever had a vaginal ultrasound.

I see my OB and then a specialist to determine what kind of tumor the rare one is. I am not worried about the tumors - not at all.Worst case situation, I need a hysterectomy.I was just surprised and sad.Sad because I was told I would most likely never be able to have children.As a result I have been mourning over this loss all week long. Struggling to find the good in it. Struggling because it is a death of a dream for me.

I wasn’t going to tell anyone but I thought you should know the whole story.When you came forward to ask for prayer, this is where I was mentally, emotionally and physically.I am telling you all of this because I want you to know God’s timing and ways are perfect. The minute you spoke the words, “I have had two miscarriages…”I knew in that very moment you were a divine appointment by God and I couldn’t hold back the tears. I couldn’t help but hug you. I was crying because I knew your pain. Although our situations are different, the end result is the same - the loss of a dream.

I want you to also know that I was also crying because God showed up in the midst of it all and was saying to me "See, I use all things for good...” You were a “balm”to my soul in that moment.

Sharing this story does not take away the pain of your loss.I know that…I just wanted you to know God used your vulnerability to reveal himself to me in a mighty way! You were a piece of the puzzle - God's Glory revealed to me in the midst of a huge trial in my life. I know He is and will continue to do the same for you. Allow God to speak into the depth of your soul. Remember, its ok to not be ok. Just don't stay there too long.

May we both have "eyes" to see Him at work. During this holiday season, may we we both focus on the hand of God upon our lives.He is a good God that loves us deeply.

By the way, He lost a child too.